Well, it's been over 2 weeks since I started my new life and DietBet and Weight Watchers. How am I doing you ask? I know you didn't really ask, but you're reading this so obviously you're dying to know.  Well, I'm proud to say, I think it's sticking!!! I have not had a soda in close to 3 weeks... NONE!! Eno at Sonic probably thinks I've died. I pretty much have drank water and sparkling water. I saved my points for beer a couple of nights. I had a nonfat latte tonight but again... I had to points.  I have not had more than a taste of refined sugar and I have stayed within my points. And I honestly, for real, not lying, feel great!!  I feel empowered, I feel more energy, confidence and will power!! Is it hard? Heck yeah, but not nearly as hard as I thought. Do I miss some things... Oh yeah! But, I know that food is an addiction and a VERY slippery slope for me so at this point, I have to avoid things that could send me down that slope.
Have I exercised? Why yes, yes I have.  I don't do the gym.  It's just not my thing right now, but maybe it will be someday.  I am walking and actually running.  Just a bit, but I am doing it and it's hard and uncomfortable, but it feels good to do it and I can move more already just from a few days of getting off the damn couch.  I do so love the couch, but I need to get off it more often. I am planning to do a 5k sometime in June for sure, maybe sooner and I would like to run at least half of it.  That's my goal.  But what is my weight goal you ask? Well, I don't really have one.  I can't focus on the scale.  I have to weigh in for WW, but I am trying to keep that away from my focus.  I have a goal of fitting on a ride at Six Flags, and not using a seatbelt extender on a plane and shopping in a regular store.  My goal is to LIVE and not be a prisoner of my weight.  To be an example of health, courage, self-control, overcoming, and the hardest... patience.  I know it's only been 3 weeks, but I can see my journey ahead, you know picture it in my head.  Once I can do that, I know I will get there.  So, look out... there is a skinny bitch in here that's breaking out...one good choice at a time!.

 
Carbs... I love them... all forms of them. Bread, pasta, potatoes, SUGAR!  They all are the hardest part of this journey. Today's demon took the form of pasta and bread.  I really meant to have a salad.  They brought it to the table all warm and delicious aroma wafting from the basket.  I can't say no... or I won't...yet!  So, food choices today were not great, but NO SODA!!  Yay Shay!!!  But really, how could I have a soda after reading the little tidbit Susan Rives posted on my wall.  It hurts me.  My feelings for soda are so strong.  It is my heroin.  I have to decide every hour that I am quitting it.  So little victory there with soda today.
Another one was the gym!!!!! I went at an ungodly hour this morning. I did cardio today.  I did a 5 minute warmup on the bike then got on the treadmill.  I made the mistake of hitting quickstart on the control and after a few minutes it was killing me.  I couldn't remember it being so bad last time.  I trudged along and got to 11 minutes and my heart rate was through the roof.  So, I stopped... then I looked at the incline and it was on 7!  No wonder I was dying.  So, I am feeling pretty darn proud that I did 11 minutes.  Anyway, after work we had a carnival at the kids school.  The school is seriously in my backyard, but the prob is there no way to get to it without going around... normally this fat girl drives! But today, I decided on my own to WALK to the carnival and back and I did!  I made it without having to stop.  I was so freaking proud.  I realize to most of you this is nothing... and honestly the walking wasn't bad at all.  BUT my CHOICE to do it was huge for me.  I will take these little victories where I can get them. 
 
I went to the freaking gym today.  I have decided that as much as I detest early morning waking, I enjoy the gym more then than after work. I was dragging today.  My cute little 12 year old trainer (not really, but he might as well be. LOL He's probably 22) was there cheering me on. He's great...just young and fit and annoyingly cute and happy.  sigh... My food choices have been ok... no soda though I desperately wanted one.  I had a sandwich for lunch and salad for dinner.  Not getting enough protein and my diet has too much fat and carbs.  I have an appointment with an exercise physiologist and nutritionist next month.  I am hoping to learn something good from them.  I did have a peep...not gonna lie.  But just one cute little yellow one.  I'm sitting here thinking about the candy bar on the kitchen table...the kids wouldn't miss it.  I am determined to refrain.  Why do you crave sugar so badly after you eat a meal? Or is it just me???
I can't tell you how much I am looking forward to the simple things about not being so damn fat.  I have broken a rolling chair at work due to my fat butt sitting in it.  I have to get on an airplane in a couple of weeks...gonna have to ask for a seatbelt extender. SOOOOO embarrassing... not to mention the look on people's face when they see they have to sit by me. I feel it sometimes too when I clean people's teeth.  They hate to have to be so close to so much of me.  And I am always so freaking hot!!!!!  I am a walking sweatshop. I just want to be a healthy somewhat normal size person.  So, no scale right now.  Just doing the work and knowing that I am going to feel better.  Thanks for coming along on this journey.  I sooo needed a good day today. I am going to have one tomorrow too!